Lyla turned 5 months this past week and every day I think to myself that I couldn't love her anymore that I do right now, and then the next day I find myself saying the same thing. I had no idea that having a child would bring this much joy and love into my life. That is not to say that I wasn't happy before her presence, but having her has just amplified everything. It is like a flower that has a better, brighter bloom. I find that I have more love in my heart than I ever imagined, and not just for her. I know many say that a baby changes everything. There is no doubt about that, but I think having a baby has definitely changed my life for the better. Were there growing pains and major adjustments, sure! Were there times of severe sleep deprivation and panic, sure! Were all of things 100% normal growing pains, absolutely!
However, most importantly, has the love for my husband and family changed, you bet ya! It has magnified 1000 fold. Every day that I see Fabian with her, being a great daddy, taking care of her, and making her smile, it melts my heart! I love that she brings a warm smile and pure happiness to so many people. Now I would like to say it is because she has a special gift in doing so, but that would be a little biased and unrealistic of me. ;)
I don't know, but maybe it is God's way of making things right in this world, finding balance in a world of complete chaos. What ever the reason, a baby's touch, giggle, or scent, it is healing to the soul. She makes me whole and gives a sense of warmth inside that is completely indescribable.